I am the kind of guy who is bad in hiding my feeling, people usually notice when i think about something...
Well i am good at pretending but NOT at hiding.
What i am trying to learn is about separation, i know in life there will be time to come and also time to go BUT everytime i have to deal to be apart from the people that i love i can't handle it well such as crying (damn it should i be ashamed of this???!)
Separation have come many times in my life, here they are:
1. When my grandma went for hajj to Mecca, I was crying (I was still a kid aged < 10).
2. When my mom left me to Abu Dhabi, i was still a kid at that moment says aged 10, was crying a lot.
3. When i graduated from Junior High School, had to be separated from my closest friends also cried but when i arrived at home.
4. When my uncle left me to Abu Dhabi, i was damn crying as well since we were very close each other says aged 13.
5. When my grandpa passed away (of course this is the normal occasion for people to cry).
6. When i graduated from Senior High School at the Graduation ceremony on the stage(my friend started to cry first then most of us crying when we were singing "Sayonara").
7. When i left to Malaysia for the first time to study there made me cry (realized that i will be far away from home).
8. When my best friend in college left me because he has finished his study and at that time some friends also left so it made me feel lonely so i cried.
9. When i left my friend in college because i am done with my study in college (tears at the airport).
10. When you come and leave of course (everytime).
11. When i am done with my master degree just feeling awfully sad (graduation ceremony not yet though).
12. I think it will happen soon.......
Well I hope these things doesn't make me less a man, since you know crying for guys is stereotyped as less manly or what the hell the name is.
I am just a guy who is bad when it comes into separation realizing that i will be lonely again and i hate to be lonely or feeling alone!
