chaiyo!

I realized something, the thing that was keeping me down these few days isn't entirely about jobs, but also I MISS MY LOVE SO MUCH that's why i sometimes cry alone because i can't express it to the people at home and i can only keep it within myself.

BUT

I have words that i will use to motivate myself:

"even though i miss u like crazy, i still have u in my life and i should be grateful for that"

I hope that sentence can be a way for me to feel happy and better soon.

I love you dear

one day i'm gonna say this to the person that i love eternally

:(

these few days, i've been down, so down that i don't know what to say and what to think anymore..

i feel like nobody understand me, i have want and need but i can't even say it all i can do is just keeping it inside, until at this point i can't take it no more..

why do i have to feel this again, i should have known from the beginning if i be here i will have this feeling again.

i was so happy to be back home before but now i am not even sure that home is the right place for me..


i need you and i love you sayangku, being with u is all i need cause when i'm with you, i feel great and happy..