sit, think, pray

I don't even know what to write here but today (26 july 2012) will always be remembered as one of the most -painful- day that torn me into pieces. half of me is lying on the country name: spain and the city name: alonsotegi i just like to pray to God at this time because now i am not able to do anything. God, if you could please put me together again with the person that i love the most, I'm saying PLEASE and I can wait until it happens. Maybe it sounds funny where I know God doesn't read or write blog, oh well you know what I feel more than anyone. He's just the best part of me that I can't let go.

father ?

This is the picture of my father's new family

Such a happy family indeed, ironically you have the eldest son from your first marriage that have been abandoned for more than 20 years. Yet, knowing you now is not doing any better to me. You paid for my university thank you for that but that is not all. I want to have a real communication between father and son and that means by not dealing with your f***ing stupid sister who tends to hurt me even more. I want to be treated fair enough because I am your own son not your step son. Don't lie and don't fake it by telling others that you want to meet me and so on because you just lie to yourself. Do you still wanna act like this? come on grow up! you are an old man, face me yourself because I am right here! You and your sister are the king and queen of a manipulation kingdom!

I can't live without you